Sickness spread through my workplace and unfortunately got hold of me last week. Following my meal plan is a fight on its own… throw a sore throat, nausea, loss of appetite, congestion, a stuffy and runny nose, headaches, fatigue, and overall weariness into the mix, and goodness does the difficulty of that fight intensify. I was not prepared for that added challenge and my mind definitely veered to some unhelpful places.
“Is it okay not to follow my meal plan since I feel sick? That is a legitimate reason, right?”
“Oh! And if I were to lose weight because I didn’t follow my meal plan for a legitimate reason such as feeling sick, that is justified… right?”
No. No. NO!
Restricting and losing weight is rocky territory for me, and the fact that I began to seriously contemplate and justify restricting and losing weight, using feeling unwell as reasoning, felt like a red flag. The eating disordered part of my brain can get sneaky. I countered it, over and over again, bringing myself back to the things I value and the life I want for myself.
I have not been perfect with following my meal plan during this period of sickness, but I have truly aimed to meet it. Prioritizing my recovery requires nourishing my body under all circumstances. This experience has been quite a test for my recovery in many ways. It has also been a learning lesson for the future.
While symptoms of my cold are still present, I feel much better than when it was at its worst the last several days. I cannot wait to get back to a place of good health! Bodies are such incredible organisms and I am thankful for the resilience mine continues to show, especially after all the abuse I have put it through.